I'm one of those people with permanent writer's block. People think writer's block means you can't think of anything to write, it's the complete opposite. You can think of anything and everything to write, you just think it sucks. I remember John Rzeznik talking about that while writing 'Dizzy Up The Girl.'
Two years ago I went to a cork & canvas night withe my coworkers. I'm someone who hates jealousy with a pure passion but man if I could be jealous at anyone about anything it would be people who can draw. I went into the night thinking I'd have colors painted all over the canvas in a big mess. I came out with one of the best done paintings of the night. Sure, I'm no Michelangelo but I can paint when I put my mind to it! That got me thinking about writing.
The only time in my life I ever felt truly good about my writing was while I read 'Heroin Diaries' by Nikki Sixx. That book, man, it gets my creative juices flowing. Why? I think it's due to the fact you're reading about someone who has life by the ass and they are throwing it all away. Your mind is like, "well that's not going to be me," and it opens to endless possibilities. I really need to re-read (for like the 15th time) that book and get my ass back in gear with some things.
I had two book ideas in mind, one about my horrible grandfather and the other called "True Confessions of a Band's Street Team Leader." The latter would have to be done from a strictly fictional sense to protect the innocent. The one about my grandfather, I started that book so many damn times but I get so angry that I stop.
About two months ago, after reading probably my 30th book since mid-July, I thought I would give this whole book writing thing a try. I've had a lot of crazy things happen in my life. I'm the most down-to-Earth girl but damn, I've encountered some real drama kings and queens. I've also been in situatio that I've had to step back from and look for the Truman Show cameras.
My book is a romance novel (go figure!) about the various people and events that have happened in my life thus far. It's obviously written in a "names have been changed to protect the innocent" and I'm combining situations together to make things not as obvious. I think people who truly know every detail of my life would be able to pick apart certain parts of the book and say, "Oh! That's about ..."
I'm over 50 pages into my story and I couldn't be prouder of myself! I hope it keeps flowing! Will I follow the process of maybe getting it published? Maybe!
The point to this post, other than stating I'm writing a book, is to stick with the little hobbies in life that you think you suck at, eventually you'll stop sucking and find a good corner to escape!