I've touched on this a little in my opening blog post but figured a whole video would explain more.
I don't want to be a hater or negative about the YouTube beauty community but it's very .... okay, it's basically like being in the lunch room of Mean Girls and hoping Regina George doesn't completely ruin you in her Burn Book.
I've made some amazing connections with some of my favorite beauty YouTubers (Casey Holmes, Kandee Johnson, Michele1218, iheartmakeup, and a few others.) I've also made some amazing friendships with 'smaller YouTuber's too. I've had a few companies use my videos in their online campaigns too. All of that has been AMAZING and I wouldn't trade any of it for the world. I do my channel for myself, my faithful followers, family, and friends. I'm never going to conform to the ideal beauty YouTuber cause I just don't have the time. That's made me a bit of a black sheep and honestly, I wear the title well. It's just that no matter how much time and effort I poured into my channel I was getting nowhere fast.
I started on this trashy romance novel back in the summer and after awhile decided I needed to share some of these great books with that masses. I know there's a huge BookTube community from watching ABooktopia so I thought what the hell, let's try it. My first video (about the Crossfire & Beautiful Bastard series) got an immediate response. I gained some followers and got mentions on Twitter ... I couldn't believe it! One of my favorite writers Kendall Ryan watched my video that I posted on her Filthy Beautiful series, Brittainy Cherry said I made her cry, she was so touched by the video I did on The Air He Breathes, Alexa Riley LOVED my review on Mechanic ... the whole thing just completely snowballed ... and in the best way possible. NEVER EVER in my wildest dreams did I think that would happen. I'm pretty raw, unedited, and as-is kinda girl so I didn't think my reviews would get attention but they do! I've become friends with some of my favorite authors and found some new blog buddies too! It's been so amazing! I feel like I belong now! I feel like all my hard work is finally being appreciated.
I started my channel for my friends and family but let's face it, after awhile you want other's to notice and it's finally happening.
So to answer the main question ... am I leaving the beauty community? Hellz no. I love makeup too much! I love telling you that a product suck or they are great - information I'll always pass on to you! I'll just have a lot more book reviews and talk in between!
It's here! It's finally here! I don't think I've been so excited for a pallet since the Naked 3 pallet launched. Gwen Stefani is my queen and everything she touches is pure genius!
I'm with the majority in that I expected super crazy colors BUT I'm very glad it's all wearable shades. If you go to Google and image search Gwen, look for high quality photos and zoom in on her eyes. The common shades used are neutrals and black. Gwen is known for her outrageous fashion but her makeup is always 60s chic with that rockability edge.
As with almost all Urban Decay shadows, this pallet has great pigmentation and long-lasting wear. There's no fall out and the colors blend very well. I also like that the colors can be built up or down.
This pallet fits perfectly into any collection whether you're a seasoned makeup vet or just starting out.
The pallet is available on Urban Decay's website and will be available on Sephora and Ulta by next week.
I'm one of those people with permanent writer's block. People think writer's block means you can't think of anything to write, it's the complete opposite. You can think of anything and everything to write, you just think it sucks. I remember John Rzeznik talking about that while writing 'Dizzy Up The Girl.'
Two years ago I went to a cork & canvas night withe my coworkers. I'm someone who hates jealousy with a pure passion but man if I could be jealous at anyone about anything it would be people who can draw. I went into the night thinking I'd have colors painted all over the canvas in a big mess. I came out with one of the best done paintings of the night. Sure, I'm no Michelangelo but I can paint when I put my mind to it! That got me thinking about writing.
The only time in my life I ever felt truly good about my writing was while I read 'Heroin Diaries' by Nikki Sixx. That book, man, it gets my creative juices flowing. Why? I think it's due to the fact you're reading about someone who has life by the ass and they are throwing it all away. Your mind is like, "well that's not going to be me," and it opens to endless possibilities. I really need to re-read (for like the 15th time) that book and get my ass back in gear with some things.
I had two book ideas in mind, one about my horrible grandfather and the other called "True Confessions of a Band's Street Team Leader." The latter would have to be done from a strictly fictional sense to protect the innocent. The one about my grandfather, I started that book so many damn times but I get so angry that I stop.
About two months ago, after reading probably my 30th book since mid-July, I thought I would give this whole book writing thing a try. I've had a lot of crazy things happen in my life. I'm the most down-to-Earth girl but damn, I've encountered some real drama kings and queens. I've also been in situatio that I've had to step back from and look for the Truman Show cameras.
My book is a romance novel (go figure!) about the various people and events that have happened in my life thus far. It's obviously written in a "names have been changed to protect the innocent" and I'm combining situations together to make things not as obvious. I think people who truly know every detail of my life would be able to pick apart certain parts of the book and say, "Oh! That's about ..."
I'm over 50 pages into my story and I couldn't be prouder of myself! I hope it keeps flowing! Will I follow the process of maybe getting it published? Maybe!
The point to this post, other than stating I'm writing a book, is to stick with the little hobbies in life that you think you suck at, eventually you'll stop sucking and find a good corner to escape!